I thank God for growth.
Ya see, I was always the girl who cried over the ex-boyfriend a little too long. I would break up with my boyfriend and the world would literally end all around me. I remember when I was 19 and found out my boyfriend cheated on me (caught him RED HANDED on the morning of my birthday) I went crazy...
I keyed his truck.
Okay, so I have to admit that while keying his beloved truck felt sooooo good at the time; in hind-sight, it was so stupid and it's actually something that I'm very ashamed of.
For the longest, I went through the "I want to be with him all the damn time" phase. My whole entire day would revolve around the boyfriend. Whatever he wanted me to do, I did. I would ignore my friends and obligations BIG TIME to be with him.
Then there was the "going through the cell-phone" phase.
Sigh, this gets bad....
I had a feeling that my boyfriend was cheating on me so I went through his phone.
Okay, so HE WAS cheating, but that doesn't make what I did okay.
Like I said, I thank God for growth.
Through my broken hearts, I've realized that losing one boyfriend isn't the end of the world. I understand that he doesn't have to be my whole life, and guys actually like it when you got something going for yourself!
Here's another good one: Sometimes, it's best to let God handle the whole cheating thing.
This isn't to say that if you find out that you just be non-responsive; but you don't have to go looking for it. Ask God for undeniable evidence, if it exists and in the event that it doesn't exist, ask God to help you with your insecurities.
As of recent relationships, I've been accused of being too non-responsive and laid back...
Who knew, but THANK GOD FOR GROWTH!!!!